no holidays to Paris
no designer bags
no expensive dinners
no shopping
i cant even provide properly for my family
i do feel I'm useless sometimes
I've always been giving loads of worries to my parents since i was a kid.
even now when im already married.
but at least now I'm always striving to be better earn better provide better
i work 6 sometimes 7 days a week. I'd have worked at night too if not for school.
Yes i go to school 3 weeknights a week. With hope for better in future.
Yes i do get tired. I'm stressed sometimes too.
I'm not seeking sympathy
I'm not complaining don't get me wrong
and i do get food on the table.
expenses always exceed what i earn.
the 'incomings' and 'outgoings' for the month keep running thru my mind.
sometimes budgets are tested
but bills are always paid.
that sometimes im surprised myself.
Nevertheless while we do not have the silver spoon in our mouth others might not even have hands to feed themselves with.
I'm lucky to have such a wonderful family.
They are hard on the outside.
Sometimes they are not tactful
They are loud.
They joke about everything.
They will laugh at you.
They are just not plastic.
But you just need to look a little deeper.
to be continued...
need to go werk liow
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i take the credit. u take the blame. This is the ideal senario for Id say everyone when something happens. I see it everwhere.

So many things happened to certain people. gd things and bad things. Its not what it seems in fairy tales where boy meets gal get married and live happily ever after. Marriage life sure needs effort. n when sumone puts in effort, pls be sure not to disappoint him/her. it'll hurt the most.

they say nobody is perfect. . Life is about improving. In whatever ways possible. big or small. its never too late.

ouh n I need a 2nd job.
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Ok so I got myself into Ngee Ann Polytechnic. Diploma In Technology. Hmm.

U see the problem is not getting INTO school. But STAYING in school and complete the whole blardy course. 3 yrs!! 3 times a week. oh gosh.

The last time i went to school, I skipped school to go to work.
The way I'm feeling now, Ill skip work to go to school!
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I remembered a time when I was in Pri 3. It was Maths period. The teacher was absent. So we were made to do our own things. The gal who sat beside me was writing using a very nice pencil. She told me i could have it for 40c. i bot it. and i sharpened it good.

Moments after, this big sized guy came to me.

"oi, u steal my eraser ar?"

'no la where got.'

"u dont bluff"

'really noo.'

and he was already starting to ransack my bag.

'oi wat u doing?'

"i want to find my eraser"

'I told u i nvr take watttt..'

i was sooo angry i cocok him at the arms twice.
his hand bled to his sleeves. he started crying. the gals screamed. he cried louder.

I panicked and poked at my own hands.

no pain wat. u pondan.
I was brought to the Principal's office.
i hate bullies.

The first.
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what do i have to do to earn that little more cash than i am earning now?
well, i have been thinking a lot.

maybe i can do part time jobs at nite? on weekends? or i can sell things?
but these things will make me work for at least 16 hrs or more a day. . this is what happen when u fucked ur education.

I had a few ideas. and then i met Malek. He's such a funny man and he's from Cocos Island. His cousin just got married in Perth. 3 of his uncles are living there. He told me lots of stories. He showed me videos. He showed me how they lived there. He was even offered a job there the last time he went but he was reluctant as he does not have friends there. So...

This is crazy but. If one of his uncles can get us a job there, I'm leaving for Perth. Really.
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Ok. its long overdue but wat the heck. Happy 2nd anniversary to us! 12th May . The day we solemnised and became husband n wifey. To be there in sickness n health. In sadness n ..

lets c.....



1)) Phuket honeymoon. :

The first time i went on a plane EVER! really!

Layalina Hotel at Kamala Beach for the first phase. rite at the edge of the beach. 3 storey rm. open concept bathtub. no crowds. and my company was yummy.

and Phuket Phantasea- must go. great show! but dont buy the CD.



2nd phase: Patong Beach, this time the food was delicious. it may also be the most happening place on earth at nite. for guys maybe. try bangla street.



to think that these 2 places were victims of the Tsunami. many died. u know. the souls. lingering? at nite? but we were too occupied to even care....u noe.



2)) Bangkok : gals+shopping= sure go again.



despite the constant riots, we still went. and enjoyed ourselves. funny how shoes and bags can cure women.



3)) Lombok + Bali.



We ekchelli went Lombok for diving at Gili Islands. Too bad the weather didnt permit and we went for a tour arnd the land. Ayam Taliwang with madu was delicious.

Jadi pengantin amik gambar pastu kene tipu. takpe.

dayak kampung. hses made from cow dung. suwaiii..



Bali was ok. stayed at Hard Rock Hotel. The pool was big. the room nice.

The band at the club was gd. But the crowd? It was more interesting watching news at my moms hse.



and porcupine hair.



Dats it for trips. we ekchelli won two tickets to Thailand and an umbrella for submitting a photo of Ida eating at a roadside stall at Kamala beach. Her photo was published in the NewPaper and in some ads on some buses. But we didnt go.



Atrina: our hse

We watched the flat grew from 2nd storey until its full growned. We watched them plant the trees. we watched them paint the flat. we watched them fix the windows. yeah we watched. from the bus stop.



we even sneaked in at nite to see our hse from near while the guard was catching a wink. really!



On the day to collect the keys, Ibu accompanied us. we forgot the marriage cert which we were supposed to bring. balik amik lah. sanggup!



When we reached the house. I went in first. Azan. tapi mcm salah gitu. nervous agaknyer.



we were so happy with the hse. bawak tikar tido sana. bought a plug-in light. electric dapor. kipas.

bought and installed all the lights from bedrms to kitchen.



Greenland for the red cabinets.

Orange sofa from Ikea.



First Hari Raya at our new house. Unforgettable.

We cleaned our own house. Kuihs. Carpets. Alas meja. Langsir. So many things to do.



And then..
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ok its been 2 yrs 3days since we got married. Happy Anniversary to us!!

So wat have we done during these two years?

What have we acchieved?

Anything interesting happened?

Hell yeah!

But to lazy to type. nex time la. pfft.
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